It doesn’t disappear. It stays. And comes Up again And again. And yet again. And it’s ok. Because the point Is not For a part of me To disappear. Even a part Of me I don’t love Every moment; Yet. It’s ok. It’s ok For the anxiety. The loneliness. The scared little girl To show … Continue reading Beautiful Girl
I’ve spent all my life looking And I am looking no more. Today I will be. Just be. No looking for answers The answers are me. No searching for people The people are here. No looking for love Love came to me. No looking for sun Sun shines on me. I’ve spent all my life … Continue reading Being
If your heart Is ripped out Mine is torn shreds. If the hell You’re experiencing Screams deafening volumes. My paradise Isn’t whole. If the life you’re living Is death. My life Isn’t life. Isn’t life at all. If the love you’ve known Has turned into Dark treacherous volcanoes. My love stings. Just a bit. A … Continue reading Sun is Down
It’s the little girl inside of me. She says I’m unworthy. She says no one can love me. She says no one can accept all of me. She makes me sick. She comes up at random times. I know it’s not me. It’s the little girl inside of me. Sometimes I can’t differentiate her from … Continue reading Beautiful Child of Me
To my parents; To my lovable parents. I want to take a moment to say I love you. Just like I’ve told you the first time in my life a few weeks ago. I will write it now for the first time in my life. I connect to my writing a lot, and now I … Continue reading Dear Mom and Dad
I created stories in my mind about rejection. Huge and scary stories which actually made me believe that rejection can kill me. And here I am. The day after I’ve been rejected by someone I love so much. I’m still here. I am alive. I keep checking my pulse, it’s there. And oh how it’s there. … Continue reading Rejection Aliveness Me.
I am unmessable. Bring the world down On my shoulders. Destroy all I love Around me. Show me all Hate In the world. I'll give love. I am unmessable. Throw rocks At my heart. Place my soul On fire. Put my mind Through hell. And my eyes Through salty lakes. I will give love. … Continue reading Unmessable. Completely Unmessable.
My voice. At times, It gets Drowned By others. By noise. By disturbances. By sounds. Outside of me. My voice. At times It gets Lost In the Tornado Of life. Through Blasts. And explosions. And then through Voices. Other voices. My voice. Today I tune into My voice. Only. The real Voice Inside of me. … Continue reading My Voice
It followed me like a cloud. The grief. The anger. The sadness. It came and it still comes, usually in waves. My first impulse was to show it its own path. It can’t and should not arrive on my path of peace, happiness and love. But it didn’t get me. It wanted to stay, it … Continue reading Acceptance
When the feelings Are too large. When they Don’t fit Inside of me. When I feel So small Against its light. When it overwhelms My being. When it explodes From every part Of me. When its energy Blinds My mind. I won’t compress it To fit In me. I won’t lessen it To fit My … Continue reading Larger